Life Like This

Something unexpected struck on my father's business. It was totally a sullen day, my father got home without yabbering anything to us. After my mum thrown some intensive questions on him, he finally told us that his business was down with heavy debts. My mum clammed up for little while before she further her speech.

The trouble really drove me crazy. One night, I lost sleep, I was taken aback without knowing the reason why and wandered around the living room like someone lost their sane. I could feel nothing but the numbness in my head and strong palpitation striking again and again. Each time it stroke, I lost my conscious mind and ran wildly in the living room.  Such a horrible life persisted till the age of 22.

After reading my previous story, I guess you might have impression on what kind of person I am. As a reminder, I don't mind to repeat a few lines of them. In aforementioned, I was raised in poor family and consistently criticized by others. I thought such fucking life may end up in my secondary school. But, I was too wrong. I was silly enough to think like an innocent man.

I told my own, I have to be strong in order to go through all those obstacles. I promised myself not to be so weak and decided to put off any bad comments on me and only take up the goods. Years gone by, I finally got over from the horrible feeling and was in final year in my secondary school as well. I expected everything dreadful in my life would soon gone and the pretty handsome life would be waiting ahead. Unfortunately, something happened to my family...

My life slowly ruin. I had a very unpleasant childhood since my whole family moved to another town (MIRI) The life there was totally different and people there behaved very rude, I just got no faintest idea why they did so. Just the very first day in my primary school, I had to bear with critics from teachers and pupils. They jeered at me for being a poor boy and lack of intelligent. I kept the dreadful feeling for my own and neither would I told my parents about it, as I didn't want both my parents worry about me.

imagine a young boy had to encounter all these inhumane experiences in his life, certainly he would develop into low-esteem personality and always in the blue. During the lesson, most teachers only focusing on clever students rather then a silly head like me. Upon seeing the enthusiasm between my  classmates and my teachers, I was once in despondent.

--> Remember this is not a fictional description but true to my life. Back to  20 years ago, I was only a little innocent boy who never learnt the fact of life. I used to play around with neighbourhood kids and seeking freaky games at all the time. If I further my words, you might think that I'm nut and did something insane. When I was younger, I did lots of weird thing such as bathing toads and grilled any insects I caught in my little net.

Somemore, I loved cathing the tiny fish from the drain and placed them in an empty can. After all, cook them instantly or pour detergent into the water. I enjoyed seeing those animals and insects died horridly.

Hi, I'm kevin, you can call my nick as Vin or Kev. But most of my American friends used to call Kev. I love the way they named me. I'm here to make a brief introduction on myself. In fact there's nothing interesting about me as I was raised in  poor family with bearly hard to get everything that I want. So the only thing I could do is be a home bird and stared still on the wall. Actually that's my past history as now, I have been struggling a lot to change myself from bad to good and from poor to a considerably good family.

Before i stop pressing the keyboard, allow me to apologise to all the readers out there as my English isn't very good. Thanks